Something chilled out for you this sunday, two tracks that make me very happy when I hear them.



The music falls into the "trip-hop" catagory which as best as I can describe is old R&B and hip hop beat patterns mixed with jazz elements and instruments.

The video features two different tracks that I blended a little where one ends and the other begins. The first track, Solid Ether, gets very funky and sexy in the middle. (I'm still trying to figure out why my computer program is rendering these videos with such heavy basslines. I don't have them EQed that way and they don't sound that heavy on my system when I play them back so I am wondering if it's something on youtube's end.) The second track, Platonic Years, has the stronger trumpet in it.

I wish I could make music like this.

The video was shot out my window during a heavy downpour a few weeks ago. I loved the way the light illuminated the rain and the tree leaves gave a softly swaying rhythmic backround to it all.

Anyway, Lime update later. I'm pretty hungry and have no food in the house. I was reduced to eating a Burger King cheese burger last night for dinner. Ugh.

-emily

-e

Quickie.

What's in a name? (signature)
The NEW break down:

"-emily" = Standard all purpose. Nothing special here.

"-e" = I'm being impersonal. It's all casual but definately all business. I'm keeping this at arms length.

"-em" = I feel safe with you. You are special to me.

"-emmie-chan" = this is waaaaay old school. I'll pull it out for special occasions.

Someday, when I am old and bent and super wrinkled I will sign everything "-emy".

-emily

So yea.

If I were to break this year into a pie chart, it would look like this:



Actually, I'm giving the white slice a bit more room than should really be there.

To give you an example, the GOOD part about today was that I pulled the skin under my thumbnail apart from the nail itself. I now understand why they used to cram bamboo under people's fingernails as a torture method.

Meanwhile, Lime is tomorrow night. I was finally able to access my google email and there were several emails in there from the IMC shows group. One was going on about how they had been discussing how they are going to start having IMC members pony up for a deposit on the space everytime a member does a show or holds an event...just like non-members have to. (Just great) Then another email goes over the upcoming events for the next week asking for volunteers to help with them etc...and Lime is left off the list entirely. (how awesome. not.)

I'd email the list but anytime I try the email is bumped or lost. Tommy says he's never gotten any of my gmail emails and I know none of them have shown up on the IMC shows email list...so I've been trying since March to use my djnhyvana email addy but the IMC lists won't accept the email. STILL. So I'm stuck getting email from them at the one email box that I have a 10% retrieval rate at, and one that I can't email to the list with. (fan-fucking-tastic).

AND since I've been dealing with so much other CRAP recently (worrying A LOT about my younger sister for one!!) I've not practiced DJing AT ALL over the last few weeks. My set tomorrow is going to be horrific. And you know what? I don't fucking care anymore. I'm just going to play whatever the hell I feel like...maybe I'll just do an old SubV set and anyone doesn't like it they can kiss my big fat Italian ass.

There is other stuff but...meh.

-emily

Great. One more thing, no make that TWO more things I have to STRESS about over LIME.
FANTASTIC. =(

I'll be back to read all your LJs later tonight - HOPEFULLY.
Life is still rough right now.

-emily

This is my fault. I admit it. I fucked everything up. I'm miserable and incredibly lonely and I only have myself to blame. My anger, my jealousy, my resentment, all the negative aspects of myself are swallowing me. I keep hoping something or someone will save me, but that will never happen. I can only save myself. I keep hoping for a shift in the basic paradigm of my life but that isn't going to happen either, unless I make it happen. I keep reaching for that bright spark of joy inside me and all I manage to do is to repeatedly snuff it out.

-e

Thus far my fave video I've done. This one is definately more abstract and "artsy" in it's visual content. I shot it while walking back to pinktornado and kidmissile's home from downtown Springfield Illinois. Sadly it looks better in it's original version on my computer...for some reason youtube pixelates it a lot more than it really is.

-emily

( another quiz thing )

Israel Kamakawiwo'ole - Somewhere Over The Rainbow_What A Wonderful World



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Meawnhile...wow...I love the weather this morning!!! =) =) =)
I wish I could stay home from work and ENJOY it.

-emily

I joined a new community and I'm kinda obsessed with it at the moment.

Anyway...

Where I was going yesterday with the whole anime droplet thing...was that THAT has been me this whole year it seems. And when I was communicating with someone on a similar issue of how rough this year has been, and how we are dealing with it...I realized that I don't take my own advice often enough.

So yea. Working on that.

Meanwhile, I ordered a hangbag online and they shipped me the wrong one. The good news is that they are shipping me the right one (hopefully) for free. The other good news is that I get to keep the one they shipped me accidentally. So if anyone wants a free khaki duffle bag, let me know. I can give details later on size and I'll post a pic. It's nice, but I already have a duffle and don't need another one. I'll even ship it to you if you aren't in Champloo-Banana (though you'll have to pay up for the shipping as I am just not that money right now.)

In other news, I have a new hat and I am in love with it. =D
I know, pics or STFU. I'll get pics later.

-emily

So to get my head in a better place, I went to YouTube and watched several videos involving peeps in movie parodies, several videos involving kittens playing in boxes and finally I turned to one of the greatest gifts the Internets has ever bestowed upon me, something that always always always makes me happy no matter what.....


And because we really like cheese and because we like zep-pe-lins
and we like marmots
( We Like The Moon lyrics )
-emily

Yes. You heard right. "Cowbell" "Guess what?!" "Fever"
Yes. James did that.
This is why I adore him so much, because he's a complete mischievious nutter.

-e

Shot during the tail end of a thunderstorm. I left the sound of thunder in.
Give it to about 1:30 in.
In the past when James has played this in his sets, he can place it such that it will bring tears to my eyes.

-emily

taken from the pages of the divinemissb's excellent LJ.

( 97 questions of stuff )

-e

-e

Normally I don't care about ruffling people's feathers. Normally. Lately though it just feels so very...wrong...when it happens. Maybe it's because in 2008 I've had more miscommunication problems than in the previous three-four years combined. When I look back over this year, there is only a small handfull of people who I haven't stepped on their feelings/gotten wires crossed/had miscommunications/put my foot in my mouth/knocked heads with/felt verbally alienated with. That's not good. It's becoming so consistant that I am now feeling like it's entirely my fault, that I am the cause since I myself am one of the only constant factors.

This isn't hinged on one instance. It really and truely is a series of combined things spreading over this last year. And because of these things I am stressed out and I hate it.

Until I figure out where everything is going wrong, or what I am doing wrong, I'm keeping my damn mouth shut and keeping to myself.

I don't want to do anymore damage than I already have.

-emily

-e

Can you feel it ?
I'm stuck inside in a hurricane
Chasing rainbows
Cant you see I'm goin' insane
I wanna be a free man
But I'm spinning on this crazy wheel
I'm jumping for the high bar
Cant you dig it
No longer know what I feel
Cant you see...

I just want to runaway
Turn me loose
Got people around running me down, I cant stay
I just want to get away, I just want to get away now.
Get them off my back today

I just wanna runaway
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The only music that makes me happy right now is their's.
My dreams keep getting darker and more stressful. Last night in my dream I was trying to evacuate someplace and the bus they were loading people onto was near ready to leave.....and I couldn't find simple things like underwear to pack to take with me. Pretty alarming in it's meaning.
I need to get my shit together.

-emily
 

This tribute picture was posted by smwance



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My Mom and Dad were HUGE fans of George Carlin. On Saturdays when my Dad was home (when we weren't taking the boat out into the bay), he and Mom would shoo Jen and I outside to play...and then the two of them would sit inside and listen to Carlin's albums. Then finally, when I was in high school (1981 or 1982)....one day when I was home sick with a cold, my Mom brought one of Carlin's albums into my room and put it on my stereo (this was back when it was an actual record and I still owned a turntable...though we called them "LPs" and just "record players".)Anyway, my Mom sat with me listening to Carlin and we laughed so hard that day we cried. I remember his bit about "When POT came into the neighborhood" and "substituting the word 'fuck' for the word 'kill' in movies". I could see then why my parents loved Carlin's humor so much. After that I got to listen with them whenever my Dad brought home a new LP of Carlin's, and then in college I kept following Carlin's comedic career. I'm happy that he got to keep doing what he loved all the way up until the very end. He died way too young, and he'll be missed.

-emily